"It's okay to not be okay this Thanksgiving."
How well was that said!?! And it's so true! I bawled like a baby while reading this article. We have felt all of these emotions, and still feel some. While we are so very grateful for our sweet little twins on the way, we are still terrified and worry if they'll make it here safely. And, we still mourn the loss of our angel baby, Cannon. We don't have a baby to hold in our arms yet, so we too still haven't made it to the "other side". My heart hurts with you this holiday season.
Holidays are so hard for those who struggle with infertility. This was supposed to be YOUR year. The year you got a positive pregnancy test. The year to buy baby clothes, decorate, or finally have a little one to put in your nursery. Or the year you could FINALLY buy a "baby's first Christmas" ornament, because your tree just isn't complete without it. This was supposed to be the year you were able to ENJOY the holidays again! The year you had an adorable pregnant belly or sonogram pictures to show off. Or to be able to say "we're pregnant!" to all the annoying and insensitive people who constantly ask when you're going to have a baby. The year that an adoption DIDN'T fall through. I spent many years struggling at holidays...easter, mother's day (this last one was especially hard because of the miscarriage), father's day, thanksgiving, christmas, etc.
I loved this article because it's so honest. It's ok to be angry, and to feel as if you don't currently have much to be grateful for. Many of us haven't beat infertility yet. We haven't personally. I hope this article can bring you some comfort. I hope you know that even though the past years have sucked beyond belief, that there are still people who love you. People who understand. You're not alone. God loves you and is mindful of your situation. While we sometimes majorly question his plans for us, he's still there listening even though it doesn't feel like it. We hope you can enjoy this holiday season to the best of your ability. Or, if you hate it and it's bah humbug all the way, that's okay too! ;)
While we don't have babies in our arms quite yet, I still am so grateful for my loving and hard working husband, my wonderful siblings, nieces and nephews, my extremely generous parents, and our weeniedog, Slinky. He has gotten me through so many years of tears.
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